first 2 years of middle school

Who knew that my life would turn upside down after i met my future loved one. It all started in middle school one of the worst times for me in my opinion. Well lets say that i was depressed about every thing that was going on and how I found many things about friends, family, school, boys,etc. well if this is not your kind of thing to read then go ahead and move on from here if you want. well i guess ill start... My name is Emily and I'm 16 now. Ever since i was little i never socialized well with the other kids and so i would be alone. I mean i was small and i didn't know how it felt to have friends until 3rd grade i met one of my so called "BFF" I had a instant attachment until 6th grade and i never knew i would lose her towards a boy she liked and i wasn't part of it but she took it out on me i felt bad so i had learned that friends are fake most of the times. 6th grade passed and so it was off to 7th and i was nervous to go what if i see her again what if someone is gonna pick on me for being alone. after 3 weeks of school i got used to some things and i got the schedule down and everything. Until i came home to know that my parents are divorcing well that caused me a lot of emotions at the tome because I've known my parents since forever and i didn't know what to do so i cried. After a while my grades went down i didn't know what happened and so my dad got mad and had threatened me that hell drop me out of school if i wouldn't pick up my grades, i started to panic and cry my school was a escape to me in a way but i love to learn and hearing that was so hard that it had lead me to extreme depression and so i thought it was time to try to socialize but all the "friends" i made would walk out on me i didn't know why but it happened so it just made me worse i started to hear voices in my head saying that i was useless and...then i started to cut... who knew that all hell broke lose in one year.