My Eating Disorder

I guess you could say I'm taking the easy way out, but do I care? no. I look in the mirror and its a demon to me. All I see is a fat, ugly, worthless, shity girl. There isn't anything pretty about my body. My goal is to get smaller than a size 3 in pants. I'm almost there and i'm slowly getting happier. I go 2 days without eating and i'm fine but after the 3rd day everyone seems to notice so I force down a sandwich. I hate eating! It honestly scares me to see food on my plate. I can't be fat....I just can't be....