Mistmenors, and Misunderstood

I don't know I just can't move on from the incident. He is just always on my mind every second.I mean he was the love of my life, and my everything. He made me whole when he was near me and when his lips were on mine. I still can't believe he is gone without even a single goodbye. I mean I feel like it was all my fault that he is gone. I know it was my fault for being intoxicated and didn't want to listen to anyone, and what they were telling me especially from him. I can still hear those last few words in my mind:
" Amanda don't drive while you're drunk".
I never could believe him after what I saw him doing with another girl at that night. The pain that was in my heart was unbearable to feel. I was so stupid to let him in the car with me in the first place I mean I loved him even though the pain he put me through, but I mean he was my everything. He was the pieces to the puzzle I have been looking for but now it is all gone. Without a last I love you in our words to each other. That night silence was all in the air, but only for a few minutes. Until he started yelling at me, and then everything went black.

" Miss Anderson please tell us how he died that night."

The officer said looking angry as ever, because I couldn't tell which direction he was, or which one to look at. It was like my mind was seeing double by this point. All I know is I had blood on my face, a dazed look that no one can describe as more than ugly. The accident that night I couldn't remember, and that's when the tears came down like a rainfall. By this point I couldn't take anything anymore.Especially this pain and agony of knowing he was gone. I stood up as quickly as my trembling body could.
" I am sorry officers but I can't do this tonight."
I tried saying without my voice trembling. I walked out of the station with not knowing where to go what to do. All I could think about was the one I lost on this unfaithful night, and that was my dear loving, caring, Fiance Liam Payne.