Sexual Abuse Survivor Story
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Dear Wattpad Readers,
My name is Ella, and I am a sexual abuse survivor. I wanted to get my story out there, in the hopes to make a difference. To any sexual abuse survivor, people who are currently dealing with sexual abuse, or to anyone who wants to read my story. I want to give people hope, that one day life WILL get better and that the abuse they went through/going through is not their fault. I want them to know that they can get help even if they feel like people will not believe them or judge them. I personally, have dealt with guilt for the abuse I went through when I shouldn't have, because I wasn't the one committing the abuse. I was the victim. My abuser made me feel as if I was the one at fault. That if I didn't do as he wanted..."I didn't love him." I also want to get the message out that sexual abuse does occur, and it is wrong in any form (obvious to many, but not to some).
I've been thinking about writing out my story for years, but I have never been "ready" or brave enough until now. "Ella Mayes", is not my real name and I wish to remain as Ella through Wattpad so I can go about my normal life with some privacy. Don't feel afraid to contact me at any time though, I am more than happy to respond to any message sent to me.
The story I intend to write is based off of real sexual abuse experiences. Please know that the actual characters, age of the main character, setting, and life timeline is fictional. The sexual abuse experiences/incidents in the story, are in fact, real and what I went through and are graphic. This is how I will feel safe in telling my story. While my family knows what I went through, many of my friends don't. I know it may be strange, but I don't want my friends to look at me with pity every time I see them. I want them to see how I am now, and to what I will be in the future. It is how I am "moving on" from what I went through. This is my intro, and I'm seeing if anyone would be interested. Please message or comment.
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