loss for words
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every day I'm left at a loss for words.
✘CW: mentions of suicide and self-harm
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*i wrote this collection in 2017, i have only updated it recently. (fixed some grammatical errors, and changed a few things, but otherwise, i've tried to leave it true to form)
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