Someone find the light

If there's a girl who's unsure of herself its me. I've been through shit half that i cant even remember,yet I still don't know how to understand what's happening. Ever since I was little I wanted a prince or bad boy to sweep me of my feet but instead I'm the girl who's friends with everyone and hates everyone.I'm the person who can be colder than ice yet I can also be warmer than the son .I've been a pushover a badass and all that and above .I was okay until i lost control and next thing I know I'm in a mansion with a pack of wolfs while there the voices in my head got louder and the burning senastion got worst but when he arrive in the room everything was darking and colder yet I was relaxed. I loved the dark feeling . All my powers and responsibilitys go away and I'm allowed to be free. Finding out my dad is not a gang leader but worst fighting desires that may kill.