Being the perfect daughter is not all it's cracked up to be. Keeping up that facade proves to be more difficult than Rose thought and during her junior year of high school she finally bows to pressure. She realizes she needs to discover herself and stop letting other people make the decisions for her. The constant pressure from her parents, teachers and sometimes even friends to be perfect infuriates her so much, she decides she has to change. New friendships will be formed and love will be found. But will our perfect girl come out unscathed from this year as well, or will she have lost people important to her? No, this isn't your typical good girl falls head over heels a bad boy story... What is it about? Read on and find out...
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"Say it. I need to hear you say it." Alex quietly says looking into my eyes. But, I'm paralyzed and I don't even know why. He starts making his way to me, with sure steps and I don't even try to back away. I want this to happen. I know that now.
"I..." I try to force the words out, but they simply won't come. What is wrong with me? When did I go from Miss Articulate to Miss Stuttering? Well, I certainly have this guy in front of me to blame.
"Say it, Rose. I need you to say it." he huskily says, placing his strong hands on my waist, making me stumble forward and onto his chest so that I am looking up into those stormy blue eyes. Those eyes that I have seen angry, hurt and passionate are now gazing back at me lustfully.
Finally, after what seems like an eternity I gather the courage needed.
"I forgive you" I manage to stutter out and his eyes light up in a heart warming smile. Not wasting another second, I take the initiative and crash my lips to his.
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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