MY LIFE IS OVER (CONFUSED IN LOVE)

My arms wrapped around his neck, I leaned in close, shut my eyes and did the stupidestnthing ever. I kissed him A.K.A Randy the guy who I 'was forced' to spend the holiday with but finally succeeded in making it interesting. The same guy who comforted me when my elder brother and I had a fight. But what did was a mistake for now my life is OVER! Well my reputation which is just as important. I think he freaked out because he didn't pull away. Unless he secretly likes me back cause he had his hands wrapped around my waist. I don't know how they got there. I was just so confused and frustrated. After that the the plane ride home was really awkward. I felt this weird feeling in my guts. I felt like laughing yet crying. Wait a minute I know what's happening. I can't believe I'm seeing this but I think I have a crush on Randy Cunningham. AAAAH!. This is not going to end well for me anyway.