The pain that never fades
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Last published Sun, Jan 22, 2017
Emily thought she could bare the pain, but in reality she was slowly loosing grip on the mountain of life. Everything was going down hill, but that's when she met Cameron. But will Cameron really be the one to save her in the end?
'Here I sit, in a white hospital room that reeks of sterilizer and bleach. If I could go back to fix the mistakes I made, I would do it in a heartbeat. I could have saved the people that love me from so much heartache. They didn't deserve what I put them through, yet I do it anyway. They should't have to put up with me, maybe the only thing to do is end it all. I deserve this, they don't, why do I do this to them?
And there is no going back now.
I am just a stupid, hormonal, selfish teenager that destroyed a family that was already in tatters. But I don't regret a thing, should I?'
Nothing she does gets her away from her past. There is nothing, but maybe there is a someone. Things aren't always what they seem, and Emily has to learn that the hard way. Follow Emily through her journey, see things through her point of view, learn the reason behind why she does all these things to both her and her family.
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