Definitely Worth It

I pull the palm cards away from my face and shove them back in my front pocket. I take one more shaky breath and sigh. Then I begin, the speech about his life, about how he made me feel and how he made everyone feel. I leave out his terrible, horrible and tragic death. Besides, everyone would be happier that way, to remember the good things about him not the bad ones and to celebrate his amazing short life, not to grieve about why it was so dangerous and short.

I still can't process the fact that he is gone. The fact that I will never get to feel his warm arms wrap around me again. Those arms, they made me feel safe, like I could tell him all of my fears and they would just wash away with a wave of his hand.

I miss his smell. I miss his hands, his nose, his lips.

I miss him. And I'm never going to get him back.

And it's all my fault.

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Aubrey Johnson is smart, beautiful and a little crazy. It's her last year of high school and she won't know what's hit her. Confusion and lust will flow through Aubrey as she becomes closer with her best friends brother, Caleb, the new kid at school, Liam, and with Caleb's BFF, Blake. Emotions will be running high as Aubrey's roller coaster of a year begins at Broadwell High. She will embark on glorious adventures and gain some dangerous but fun memories.

But the question is that in the end, will it all be definitely worth it?