Tainted Existence

Have you ever wished and prayed that some memories would just go away? That somehow, you would get an amnesia so you could just forget every miniscule detail of an unfortunate event?

Well, I have.

And that's my reason for writing this...

At the back of my mind, I know all I'm doing is just admitting my defeat but at this moment, 3:08 in the morning, I believe that this would be my escape... my enliving this dreaded nightmare would somehow serve as a passage, a port from the unbearable pain of seeing his face over and over again...

Life has a very cruel sense of humor and I detest it. But since I woke up, panting like a dog and sweating bullets with my hands trembling... I would share you the dream...