feeling down
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Last published Sun, Feb 14, 2016
Please tell me why I don't have to courage to try and tell the truth to the people who do listen to me constantly
they have no time for my little cries and now I feel regretful for doing this to them
this is the reason I cry at night while I lay with the knife at my side ready to pry my skin open
to let the water falls of red flow down into the crevasses waiting to be wiped up before anyone notices
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