Where did you go ?

We sat in the silence for what seemed like eternity.

"For how long?" I swallowed hard not sure if I can speak anymore.

He sighed deeply, his face in his hands his knuckles white. "A year maybe two." My vision blurred a bit, I'm numb.

Can I do this ? Can I wait almost two years for christian to come back ? Tears began falling from my face as I became more aware of how big our apartment feels, and how it'll be worse when hes gone.

"When are you leaving ?" I choked my voice quiet. He sighed once more before looking at me, his eyes now a pale blue and wide. Like a lost child he searched for something in my eyes. Reassurance? Forgiveness ?

"At 7." I turn to the bedside table where my alarm clock faced us. One more hour until my world changes.