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Suicide Notes {Phan}

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*MAJOR EDITING AND STORY CHANGES*
      IF A CHAPTER IS EDITED IT WILL SAY AT THE BEGINNING
      
      Dan has been hiding his dark past from Phil for a long, long time. 
  
  When one night Dan tries to end it all, how will Phil react?
      
  When Phil can't stand the fact he ignored the signs, will their love die off through the craziness?
      
   @alidaisnotonfire helped me lots with this story <3
      
      
  -Trigger warning-
  
  cover by @-darkhearted

I NO LONGER WRITE TO THE PUBLIC. SOME CHAPTERS ARE EDITED, SOME ARE NOT. I AM NOT ACTIVE ANYMORE.All Rights Reserved

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The Darkest Of Days by Skeleton_Rebel

What happens when the Phandom takes things too far? TW: Self-harm, suicide, depression A/N: Each chapter will be short as it was originally going to be a one-shot but decided to go further with it

Break Me (Phan) by MySecretsX

COMPLETE *** In this world, you're marked with black. That's if you have a soulmate, at least. Everyone is destined to cross paths with the one who is meant for them, at least once in their lives. When you and your soulmate meet, you will touch, if only briefly, and the exact area of skin you touch with the other turns from black to white, with streaks of blue, purple, yellow, all marbled in with each other. Daniel Howell is well known in town. People cross the street if they're approaching him and newcomers to the neighborhood are warned about his presence. Exactly like the Lester's were. But Phil Lester has other ideas, he saw the pain within the boy, how bad can he really be? (A story about abuse, self-destruction, but ultimately, love. Please read safe.)

The First Time (Phan) by PhanIAm

Dan was a teenage boy who was a bit awkward and not the most popular person. He was happy, but not the happiest he could be. That was until he was told about a certain YouTuber who changes his life forever. A FICTIONAL story of how Phan became what it is today. This is a safe Phan fiction with no triggers (although if anyone disagrees be sure to let me know).

struggling➾ phan (complete) by -aesthetichowell-

update:: this was written about two years ago, the writing is quite bad, I apologize in advance //trigger warning// //dans pov// "do you love me phil ?" "maybe i do"

Tinder - D.JH. by yuhsuga

[COMPLETED] (This was written before Dan came out! I am in no way meaning to invalidate his sexuality, I love him to death!) Based on Dan's video, "Would you date THE REAL Dan?" but it takes a twist. Said video has since been deleted due to an user request to Tinder's app. Rest in peace, Would you date THE REAL Dan?, 2017-2017. Forever in our memories, but never quite taking it to our hearts. Best Ranking: #1 in #danielhowell Warning: Contains sexual content and some other graphic imagery. ©yuhsuga, 2017

Life Is Precious, Just Like Him - Phil Lester X Depressed! Reader by noathenerd

You met Dan in College and became close friends, even dropped out at the same time as him because of overwhelming stress, and your Depression and Anxiety. Your parents won't take you back in because they're abusive and always have been, so you have no where to go. That is until Dan saves you and takes you in. At his place you met Phil and instantly there's something about him that makes you fall in love. Phil and you bond immediately and he promises to help you through your depression and other problems, no matter how hard it may be.

psychedelia | phan by thenightlockfox

Dan has given up on ever being happy. Life has lost its meaning, and everything he seems to do causes some form of destruction, and Dan is so tired of destroying the things he used to love. He's lost so much, and he's scared of losing Phil, the only thing he can bring himself to care about. But Dan can't see past his own depression that Phil is struggling with bulimia, and that he's equally good at hiding his dark thoughts as Dan. And as Dan walks through the streets alone at night getting high to escape from the hell he's trapped himself in, will he be able to see that maybe the happiness he craves so desperately is not on the streets in the form of white pills, but inside his own apartment in the form of Phil Lester? Or will it be too late... WARNING: THIS STORY CONTAINS STRONG LANGUAGE, SEXUAL SITUATIONS, USE OF DRUGS, VIOLENCE, HIGH LEVELS OF ANGST, BULIMIA, AND THEMES OF SUICIDE. IT IS NOT SUITABLE FOR YOUNGER READERS.

Dan and Phil Oneshots by NatureHowell

Oneshots of Dan and Phil!! Any trigger warnings and number of words are stated at the beginning of each chapter. Enjoy!! :3 If you have any requests let me know :-)

deranged | phan by phanlusions

completed~~ Dan Howell is admitted into the Manchester Eye Mental Hospital after his attempted suicide. He gets roomed with a boy named Phil Lester, but he doesn't talk much. Not at all actually. Dan decides to make it his personal mission to make Phil talk, but focusing on someone all the time can make you lose yourself. ------------------------------------------ mentions of self harm, suicide, multiple mental illnesses, etc ------------------------------------------ deranged (a.) mad; insane

In Another Life (Dan and Phil X Reader) by Liv4Writing

You've lived most of your teenagerhood as a major fan of Dan and Phil, and a proud member of the Phandom (shipping them or not, your choice.) You wake up one day to find yourself seemingly inserted into Dan's life as his best friend, and the next day inserted into Phil's life. You alternate being your two favorite YouTubers' best friend. Finally, you notice that Dan and Phil are notably absent from each other's lives: they've never met. You're torn between wanting to bring the two YouTubers together to create the amazing Phandom, but you also want to continue spending your life with them. And on top of that, you only have room for one life- Dan or Phil? Note: Please read the whole story! It won't make sense if you skip chapters.

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Tinder - D.JH. cover

Life Is Precious, Just Like Him - Phil Lester X Depressed! Reader cover

psychedelia | phan cover

Dan and Phil Oneshots cover

deranged | phan cover

In Another Life (Dan and Phil X Reader) cover

The Darkest Of Days

What happens when the Phandom takes things too far? TW: Self-harm, suicide, depression A/N: Each chapter will be short as it was originally going to be a one-shot but decided to go further with it