Chapter 1

I thought it would be a good idea to try out for the xfactor. I mean, i made it, but i didnt expect to be in a boy band. i didnt expect this to happen. its the worst pain in the world. the fact nobody knows. the fact. i hide my love. the fact.. i just cant take it anymore. i have to have a cover up. the scary part is. she's fallen in love with me. the fact that harry doesnt talk to me the same anymore. the fact i have to say larry is bullshit. it hurts me. i cant take it anymore. im about to break. i just want to burst out and scream. instead.. i burst out into tears. then my boyfriend is hurt. that hurts me even more. but you know what the worst part is? Harry doesnt remember a thing. -Louis Tomlinson