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I have always been dreaming having a perfect life, perfect job, perfect house, perfect car and the perfect boy. I mean, he was already with me. - Or was I the only one having the connection? 

Turns out the boy I believe having or sharing those perfect things was a fake. Cheating with my so-called best friend crossed the line.

My parents always hated me, not that they said that to my face, but I know they hate me especially because they want to have a daughter like a slut of a best friend.


My life was never happy, the dreams I always want faided. I learned that here in the real world, there's no happy ending.

Forever Alone. Yeah, that's my motto.. - Or will it change?



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I AM THE SECOND MALE LEAD. by pushisinung

HOW DOES IT FEEL TO BE THE SECOND CHOICE IN A PERSON'S LIFE? I was always the 2nd choice in everyone's life. People always left me for someone, someone who was a bigger jerk than me. I couldn't understand why they left me for assholes such as those bastards. This always happened in my dream. Every single time people left me to be with a toxic guy when I was the better choice. In my dreams, those people who left me were, sometimes a girl and sometimes a guy. Nevertheless I was always abandoned in my dreams while the guy who takes them away glares at me with a smug smile on his face as if screaming "I won." Why was I always the second choice in their lives? I don't understand. What am I lacking? "YOU ARE TOO KIND!" "YOU NEED TO BE ASSERTIVE AND ROUGH ON BED TO WIN." "PEOPLE THESE DAYS LIKE TO BE CONTROLLED AND LEAD ON!!" "YOU NEED TO BE A BIT MORE TOXIC, MANIPULATIVE AND DEMANDING!" "BADBOYS ARE A TREND THESE DAYS!" "JUST BE A BIT MORE OF AN ASSHOLE OR ELSE YOU WILL NOT WIN! YOU HEAR ME?!?" SAID A CERTAIN ANNOYING BUG! "......." WTF! I QUIT!!!

Deception 4 by __AnonymousWriter

I'm done crying. If life taught me anything, it would be to not give a flying fuck. Crying didn't get me anywhere. Writing helped a little. But it's over. My life is so fucked up that it's time to start over. But how? Where do I start? I've been lied to, lied on, hell I don't even know who loves me. But Karma...now that's a bad bitch. She come when I least expect her. I don't understand. What did I ever do to deserve the pain and hurt people have caused me. Like I said before, people change. People don't know how to react to certain situations. Well I'm done. I'm done with certain people and certain things. It's a new me. No more crying, no more pain. Fuck everything. Sometimes I wonder what to do. When people lie to me, what should I do? I mean, what would you do if someone is being...deceptive?

Could You Love Me by MTColt

My only desire would be to make it through this hell. One more year would be all it takes, to set me free. Never had I struggled this hard with something, something with such force and power, dominating you every time. He did that to me, he brought that on me. Some people call it love. I say it's a sadistic enigma, made purely out of all your worst fears. _ *Warning* Includes alcohol, violence, and bad language. Mature Teen Audience recommended.

I Fell in Love with a Bad Boy by Beautiful_Tragedy8

CRINGE WARNING! First book I ever wrote on here!! -- "Sometimes the person who you are willing to take a bullet for is the person behind the gun." I stood peering over the cold lifeless body that lay before my eyes. I had always thought of death the enemy, but right now, I blessed it upon the person who is now at peace. Sometimes you don't need to be the smartest, or the fastest, but you do need to be wisest. They say the blood runs deeper than water, and I believe it, because even though the people that we love can turn on us and begin to hate us, they are only human, meaning that soon they will begin to see how short life really is and how it is not to be wasted. People who seem perfect and they look like they have no floors'; they are the people who are suffering, like I was. But I found my savior in the most uncommon place. He was able to look through my mask, he saw the cracks, and tried to fix the broken girl that hid away deep inside the girl who only wanted to be seen as 'fine'. I slowly began to find comfort and safety in him, and I did the same to him. We were two broken people becoming whole. Someone once said when you pass, if you can count your true friends on one hand you are beyond lucky, and I even though I did not like the person that lay before me, I know that he once had true friends, including me. I'm a 17 year old girl who has suffered more than any other, beginning to believe that 'Hope' was just another word the people throw around. Until I fell in love with a badboy. Trailer to the side -------------------> Made By @Laura__1 Cover made by @Beautiful_Tragedy8 Copyright 2014

Your Guardian Angel by miss_she_wolf

It feels like I'm living in a world full of lies... My life is full of lies. My life is wreck. My life is a disaster. I want to run but I can't. There holding me back. They keep me chained to this horrible place. The pain they give me is unbearable but I need to survive this hell hole just to escape. It seems like there lies are already enough to give me pain but they don't stop there. They keep doing it as if they want me to be dead from this pain. I was alone. At least I thought I was. Until he came. He was my new neighbor. He is an irresistible bad boy. When he came into my life it was just like your car crashed into a concrete wall and you went flying because of the impact it made. Well that's how its gonna be when he crashed into my miserable life. And he made a big impact and changed my whole life...

These Are My Confessions by Pharaohs_Love

These are my confessions to everything that I've done. When you read this I don't want you to look at me differently. I don't want your pity or any type of sympathy. See I knew what I signed up for when I entered the game. I choose this lifestyle and at one time I thought it was the best choice for me. I had access to any and everything. Don't be fooled though there is always a dark side. Nobody ever tells you about the price you have to pay when you are in my position. Everybody sees the good but, not the bad. The days you have to spend trying to cover your face with makeup. The different people you meet every night just to survive. The things you would go through just to get someone's attention. I guess you could say I did it for love. Only if you believe in that type of stuff. I would like to call my experience a high. It was pure ecstasy at first. The charming smile, expensive clothes, fancy dinners, nice vacations. Then it turns into a living hell you can't escape from. That's when people start showing their true colors. When lights go off there is a whole different side to a person. You could literally be sleeping next to the devil himself. 'Let's do this dirty laundry'

Different Universes (Complete ✔️) by HolyTri

★"What are you up to tomorrow?" He asked. "Tomorrow's winter holiday, so nothing?" "Then be ready tomorrow at early morning, I'll have you from morning till bedtime and maybe till winter holiday is over if your mom doesn't bug us." He said parking the car and we started walking to school. "Really? Hard to believe!" "What is?" "Well, a boy who wears a rolex watch," I said pointing at his right hand. "Who has a big mansion and goes to a different country every spring holiday and has a summer house and is so hot that every girl's dream is to be asked out by him, would rather spend the holiday with me than do anything else in the entire world! What would people say?" I asked looking down at my shoes. Pete said nothing for about half the way. "They fell in love." He said and I looked up at him, he's smiling, I stopped walking and he did too staring right into my eyes, he took a strand of hair and placed it behind my ear. "They'll start asking how, but they'll realize it's not impossible, that love has no conditions, that no wealth matters as long as I'm with you, no rolex watch can replace you, nothing matters but you." ...★ *** Rich hot badboy and the good daughter of an ex actress, not a chance together right? Watch out, because they're challenging the universe by giving it a try, would it work out or does the universe have another plan for them? P.S. I love this story and I hope you do too :)

When the Sun Sets by bourbonvanilla

I meet him at the right time. Or a completely wrong one, depending on the perspective you look from. I am not the one to fall head over heels in love with someone and he is not the guy someone should even fall in love with. But there are all the witty comebacks, the unplanned meetings at the bar, the rides on his motorcycle, all the laughs we share before the morning ... It does something to both of us. It changes us to the extent where we suddenly can't live without all of this. He is not a good guy. He's as bad as it gets. But he's perfect for me. I want to believe our story is a modern fairy tale with a more realistic ending. You won't get the princess-prince bullshit from me. You'll get it how it is with no sugar-coating. I was no princess and he was no prince, yet we still had something beautiful going on. For a while, at least.

My Broken Girl (Bad Boy) by Abileneansongwriter

"I'm not a beautiful, I'm ugly". I said as he holds my hand. "Your beautiful and your broken". He said as he rest his head on my forehead. "They say 'She's beautiful, but broken'. I am broken and I always will be broken". I said as he pressed his soft lips on mine. "Not for long". He said as he holds my chin. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ This story had inspired me to write this, so, don't steal my storyline. Warning! There will be violence There will be self harm There will be bad language

MY MIDNIGHT PRINCE by __ayeshaaaxoxo

Where is he? Why hasn't he come yet? Oh dear Satan is he alright! Just as I was about to get up and leave my apartment and leave he came in and hugged me tight. And then he said those three magical words " I LOVE YOU, I can't live without you, I can't do this anymore, I hate when others flirt around you and you flirt back. You are mine and that's final. Whether you like it or not. For once in my entire lifetime I want to be selfish so let me be. Call me by your name if you feel the same for me. If not then I will agree with my father and leave you for forever and never return and show my face to you." I couldn't think of anything so I just kissed him to tell him that I feel the same and called him by my name..... This is story which cherishes pure love, brotherhood, sacrifices and bonds... will the true friends stay together or will they do something which will result I hatred...Let's discover the adventures of true friendship, complications of love and purity of brotherhood...

THE BAD GIRL'S BOY by halymahxoxo

Promiscuity is addictive. It's so safe. You are not at risk of getting hurt, physically maybe , But emotionally ? No And the emotional pain is by far the worst. I know this because I've experienced both. Physical pain, from my alcoholic father, sexual abuse from his friends. It hurt, it really did. I have scars to show. But let me tell you, the worst type of hurt is the emotional pain. That pain you get when after years of building a wall around yourself, you FINALLY let someone in. You let that one special person in. You bring down your walls. You give your heart. You let him hold your heart in his palms even though you know the risks. You have so many dreams and fantasies about being with this person forever. And he leads you on. It feels good But then he turns around and crushes your heart. He squeezes the life out of it and you feel pain that you never thought was humanly possible. You feel so much pain you can't breathe. And then , you become cold. You stop feeling. You have no heart anymore. You become heartless, promiscuous, bad, really bad. Yes , that happened to me. Ben did that to me. It hurt. It hurt too much. But now I'm safe . Because I'm the bad girl. The one who doesn't have a heart left to be broken.

Blind Lycan by hells_princess999

I was just a normal girl, despite not being human. Growing up my life was shitty, but still I was glad to be alive despite how dead I felt inside. There wasn't a single person in the world that I could trust. Not a single person that I cared for. Until HE came. My boring life soon vanished, werewolves hunt me from all corners of the earth. Rogues, Alphas, and kings Alike. I was kidnapped, despite him telling people different. Everyone told me he was a monster, the beast that never loved, he didn't feel pain, or remorse. For a while I believed the stories and rumours, until I came to realise that the beast simply acted on the assumptions of others. They called him a beast. They treated him like an animal. So the animal he became. But I could see the pain, the agony that he feels every day of his life. Unable to see the world in colour ever again, completely blind in human form. Slowly I was falling for the Lycan, not realising that he was waiting to catch me. With enemies surrounding me, and old unfamiliar friends appearing out of thin air to reveal secrets that I had long forgotten, things get complicated. Lies are told, secrets are kept, and slowly but surely myself and the beast and ripping each other apart. Will we survive the wars? Or will it destroy us both? The truth is always revealed at one point, no matter how much it rips apart your happy little bubble. With an enemy stronger than us all, and older than time itself, how do we defend ourselves? He is coming for me, and he will kill everyone I've come to love if they step in his way. Little did any of us know that the key to the kings demise, was me. I have power beyond anything anyone has ever seen, I am the daughter of the mother moon, and he wants it. He wants it all. And he plans on burning those who even consider stopping him. READ TO FIND OUT... *INCLUDES SWEARING, VIOLENCE AND MATURE SCENES*

Heartbreak in the Heat by hipoton

It was the end of my first year at university and I was looking forward to the summer to live it to the fullest until my heart was broken. As if being dumped wasn't enough, I now have to endure the humiliation of watching my ex-boyfriend flaunt his new girlfriend - who also happens to be my former best friend - all over town. Double whammy. I am now the pathetic ex-girlfriend with a broken heart. I am doomed to spend the summer sulking over a guy who thought I was predictable and bad in bed. So here's what I've decided to do this summer; the plan is simple...pretend I'm dating Jim, the popular bad boy of the town, and make my ex-boyfriend green with envy. What do you think? After all...what could possibly go wrong?

The Honest Liar by lylah_paige

He just stood there. Looking at me. The way I had reacted had put him in a state of shock. "I... I um," Every word I had learned from pre-school to now had just flew out of my mind and left me speechless. "I should go." I could tell he could barely hear the hurtful words I had just chocked out of my mouth, but I didn't care. Not anymore. I walked away. Fighting back tears. I drove all the way to my house and when I got there I fell against the cold wall. What had just happened? All I knew is that I wasn't able to think straight. My mind was clouded with memories of him. I shook my head trying to forget everything that was involved with him. But I wasn't able to forget. These thoughts were a part of me now. He was a part of me.

A Taste Of Life by _sincerelysammie

Him: I hate myself. For what I did to her, for leaving, for everything. But what was I supposed to do? Love her while letting myself destruct? Now I have to live my life without her. I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I miss her. Her: I should of known something like this was going to happen. I should of known I would only get hurt. Why did I have to let him in? I have to move on now, even if it kills me. As if this pain in my heart isn't already tearing me apart. I don't know if I can do this anymore. I miss him. - continuation and sequel to Let Me In.

Broken Pieces by SMC_547

"I love you" she says and kisses my jaw tenderly. "I love you too baby" I reply stroking her still damp hair. We were sat in a dirty McDonald's car park. We could be sat in a fucking pile of trash and I wouldn't care. Because I would be with her. As long as I'm with her, nothing else matters. -------------------------------------------------------- After all he had known was anger and hatred she was like a breath of fresh air to him. With just one look into her mesmerizing chocolate eyes and one listen to her angelic voice he knew he was ruined. He despised this feeling. He felt helpless. No matter how much he tried to stay away he was drawn to her and he knew he was playing a very dangerous game. Leaving the pain of her past behind her she starts a fresh in a new town with her older brother. Meeting the towns bad boy was not on her agenda but every time she saw him she was intrigued. He was rude and had a terrible attitude, but his eyes didn't show anything but pain which is something she knew all too well. They are complete opposites but have one thing in common. They are both broken, maybe just maybe they could be the cure to each others pain. ⚠️ this story contains mentions of abuse and alcohol so if you are not comfortable with this please do not read my story.

Unwanted. Broken. Abused by greenishbeans

'What does it feel like to be loved? What does it feel like to belong? What does it feel like to have a family? Thats just the thing. I don't know. All I've ever known is the hate and abuse I face every day. Everyday. Everyday fearing what comes next. Fearing what new horrors Harvey has come up with. Always. Everyday. Everyday waking up to pain. Everyday wanting to die. Everyday being unable to relive myself of the pain. This is my life.' Meet Hope Evans. Abused. Mute. Broken She feels like nothing could ever fix her messed up world. But when the school's bad boy comes flying into her life, things start to change. For better? I don't know.

Outcast ✔️ by justanathergirl3

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To Be Broken by lazylazerkitten

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Heal Me by XxHafsabegumxX

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I AM THE SECOND MALE LEAD.

HOW DOES IT FEEL TO BE THE SECOND CHOICE IN A PERSON'S LIFE? I was always the 2nd choice in everyone's life. People always left me for someone, someone who was a bigger jerk than me. I couldn't understand why they left me for assholes such as those bastards. This always happened in my dream. Every single time people left me to be with a toxic guy when I was the better choice. In my dreams, those people who left me were, sometimes a girl and sometimes a guy. Nevertheless I was always abandoned in my dreams while the guy who takes them away glares at me with a smug smile on his face as if screaming "I won." Why was I always the second choice in their lives? I don't understand. What am I lacking? "YOU ARE TOO KIND!" "YOU NEED TO BE ASSERTIVE AND ROUGH ON BED TO WIN." "PEOPLE THESE DAYS LIKE TO BE CONTROLLED AND LEAD ON!!" "YOU NEED TO BE A BIT MORE TOXIC, MANIPULATIVE AND DEMANDING!" "BADBOYS ARE A TREND THESE DAYS!" "JUST BE A BIT MORE OF AN ASSHOLE OR ELSE YOU WILL NOT WIN! YOU HEAR ME?!?" SAID A CERTAIN ANNOYING BUG! "......." WTF! I QUIT!!!