Disorderly Love
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It was late. It must have been; it was so dark. Phil had always loved the dark because it felt safe to him. It was an entire world that he controlled. Of course, he knew that he didn't really control it. He just liked to think that way. Phil had always been like that; he thought a certain way about something and it never changed. Well, almost never. Only one thing had changed: the way he felt about his best friend. Dan Howell.
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