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Disorderly Love

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Reads 825
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Parts 43
Time 2h 24m

iwontseeyouinheaven

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It was late. It must have been; it was so dark. Phil had always loved the dark because it felt safe to him. It was an entire world that he controlled. Of course, he knew that he didn't really control it. He just liked to think that way. Phil had always been like that; he thought a certain way about something and it never changed. Well, almost never. Only one thing had changed: the way he felt about his best friend. Dan Howell.All Rights Reserved

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The Super Amazing Saturn Project (phan fiction) (complete) by phanwhitets

so basically if you've stumbled across this story i must warn you of suicide, self-harm, abuse, alcohol, language, and sex ;) so Phil gets assigned a new project for his astronomy class and instantly likes dan. Although his constant insecurities and troubled memories always cause him to believe that dan could never love him. Dan, though, has fallen for this sad boy and also believes that Phil couldn't like him back. then sad things happen, happy things happen, blah blah blah read it to find out if your reading it, i declare you awesome

I'm trying o.k? by Sunnies4Shade

Dan is highly depressed and falls for Phil, his best friend who tries to help him out of his self destructive path. Trigger warning -mention of self harm, death, eating disorders, alcoholism. Some personal views about these issues are expressed so I'm sorry if you don't agree with them but hey that's why I said "personal".

Outcast ✧ Phan by cuddlephan

Dan Howell has telekinesis - a power just like out of a comic book. Yet instead of protecting the universe as a brave superhero, he hides. He hides his power and himself, fearing nothing more than getting attached to somebody and dragging them down. Of course, Phil Lester, the new kid in school, just had to come waltzing in, destroying his entire view on nearly everything in the worst (and best) ways possible. Phil's like a drug, and boy, is Dan addicted. Warning: contains self harm, depression, boyxboy, references towards abuse, and other possible triggers or content you may not be comfortable with. you can message me in private for the specifics if you feel you need it and remember to stay safe. (Top: #89 in Fanfiction, #1 in Phan!)

Life Is Precious, Just Like Him - Phil Lester X Depressed! Reader by noathenerd

You met Dan in College and became close friends, even dropped out at the same time as him because of overwhelming stress, and your Depression and Anxiety. Your parents won't take you back in because they're abusive and always have been, so you have no where to go. That is until Dan saves you and takes you in. At his place you met Phil and instantly there's something about him that makes you fall in love. Phil and you bond immediately and he promises to help you through your depression and other problems, no matter how hard it may be.

True Love Always Finds Its Way // Phan by sofiaa720

What do you do when you've been in love with your best friend for years, but you're too afraid to confess? Dan Howell has been torturing himself internally, but when he finally gets the courage to tell Phil Lester about his undying love, he gets the shock of his life. Find out if Dan ever gets through this seemingly dreadful nightmare, and if true love truly is real. *Please vote and comment! This is my first story and it would mean the world!*

The Lion and the Llama (Phanfiction) by danosaurxx

*TRIGGER WARNING* Dan and Phil start having feelings for each other, but after one of Dan's nightmares causing him wanting Phil to sleep with him the rest of the night, things start spiraling out of control. (Phan, self harm, swearing etc etc etc) Ok, I'm terrible at descriptions, but if you wanna know what actually happens read on :))) -A xx

50 Shades of Howell by denton_bailey_k

|COMPLETED| When Dan Howell meets his internet friend, Persephone, for the first time, they become even closer and learn a little too much about each other. Will their sudden interests in each others' dark pasts slowly pull them apart and change who they are?

There is a Light That Never Goes Out (Phan) by worriedpeach

When Dan Howell goes to end his life one fateful night, he doesn't expect to meet a stranger that proposes a deal. If Dan give him thirty days, Phil will give him thirty reasons to live. If at the end of the thirty days and Dan still feels the same, then Phil will leave him alone. Warnings: mentions of suicide, smoking, overdose, alcohol, cursing, smut, depression, anxiety

The Only One (Phan) [COMPLETE] by underscorekacie

"Phil Lester is the literal sunshine of my life. If I didn't have him in my life, I may have been dead by now. Every day still sucks, but whenever I'm with Phil, my heart remembers that life is worth living. The only reason my life is worth living is to be next to Phil. To see him smile, to hear him laugh, to listen to his voice, to watch him move...everything. Everything that he does brings the much-needed light into my life." Dan Howell has many struggles within himself, despite his successful YouTube career. The only one who truly helps him is his best mate, Phil Lester. Dan has been madly in love with Phil since the first day they met. However, Dan knows that it is inevitable that Phil will never return the feeling because he is only interested in women. As Dan attempts to battle his own demons, Phil seems to be quite happy and even ends up dating a beautiful girl. Unfortunately, this makes Dan's mental state even worse. What will happen to Dan? Will he ever confess his strong feelings for his best friend? Will he ever overcome the ongoing war in his head?

Phil...- (Phanfic) by sallyswift

Phil is depressed and has been for a long time, Phil had kept this from Dan for along time by letting his bubbly personality invade his mind to distract him from the dark truth inside. But when one fatal day arrives ,Phil's underling feelings erupt from underneath and he is thrown into a world full of chaos not to mention when Dan brings back a small orphan boy. Will Phil get his Happily ever after or will he be lost in a sea of his own thoughts? ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- This story has themes such as self harm and suicide, if you feel upset about these themes then this book isn't for you, my writing is dark as it helps me to express myself. I do not intend to romanticise or cast these themes the wrong way, I hope you enjoy.

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True Love Always Finds Its Way // Phan cover

The Lion and the Llama (Phanfiction) cover

50 Shades of Howell cover

There is a Light That Never Goes Out (Phan) cover

The Only One (Phan) [COMPLETE] cover

Phil...- (Phanfic) cover

The Super Amazing Saturn Project (phan fiction) (complete)

so basically if you've stumbled across this story i must warn you of suicide, self-harm, abuse, alcohol, language, and sex ;) so Phil gets assigned a new project for his astronomy class and instantly likes dan. Although his constant insecurities and troubled memories always cause him to believe that dan could never love him. Dan, though, has fallen for this sad boy and also believes that Phil couldn't like him back. then sad things happen, happy things happen, blah blah blah read it to find out if your reading it, i declare you awesome