My misery
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MatureOngoing14m
Last published Sat, Aug 13, 2016
YOU don't understand. How I feel .
What I have to deal with everyday. How many times I want to give up . You don't understand what it's like to be the ugliest person in the world so to make you understand my misery ill tell you what it's like. Imagine if you always sad and always trusting the wrong people imagine waking up everyday and feeling like you don't belong imagine how it feels to know you want to starve yourself yet your pathetic self can't . Imagine having everyone their yet feeling like no one is.I wake up everyday and feel like I'm not alive EVERY time I look in the mirror I force myself to hold back the tears because I know I'm ugly I know I'm never going to get a boyfriend I know I'm not worthy of living I know everyone is trying to "help" me but the only thing i want them to help me with is to leave me alone I hate life every time I walk out in public I feel ashamed of myself like no matter what I do I can never be pretty
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