FEAR OF COMMITMENT.
- Reads 51
- Votes 12
- Parts 1
Complete Tue, Feb 23, 2016<5 mins
#402 in Poetry
"No one ever told me that grief felt so like fear. I am not afraid, but the sensation is like being afraid. The same fluttering in the stomach, the same restlessness, the yawning. I keep on swallowing.
At other times it feels like being mildly drunk, or concussed. There is a sort of invisible blanket between the world and me. I find it hard to take in what anyone says. Or perhaps, hard to want to take it in. It is so uninteresting. Yet I want the others to be about me. I dread the moments when the house is empty. If only they would talk to one another and not to me."
― C.S. Lewis, A Grief Observed
All Rights Reserved
#478
afraid
Join the largest storytelling communityGet personalized story recommendations, save your favourites to your library, and comment and vote to grow your community.
You may also like
Through Fire and Fate| Book 3-Baker and Yvonne
Baker and Yvonne have fought their way back to each other, rebuilding a love that once seemed lost forever. With Abigail growing closer to Yvonne and their bond deepening, they're finally stepping into the future they once dreamed of. But just as life begins to settle, shadows from the past resurface, threatening everything they've built. As old wounds heal and new promises are made, Baker and Yvonne will have to face the ultimate test-one that will challenge their love, their trust, and their very fate. Some fires are meant to destroy. Others forge something unbreakable. Through fire and fate, their love will be tested like never before. 💕💕💕 Thank you all so much for your incredible support! Unfortunately, it has come to my attention that someone is plagiarizing my stories and posting them on other apps. If you come across any of these instances, please report them immediately. I want to clarify that I would never charge for these stories-they are something I genuinely enjoy sharing with you all for free 🫶🏾.Complete
The fate I'd fear you'd have.
(imma do this story because this ship is underrated) though, had you ever wanted to protect someone? love them? do anything to prevent death? that's how he felt. since child, he has lost his family. all of it. years later, he's forced to join a group called "the toppats" bummer. but he met someone he could finally trust. Sven Svenssson but he was worried. a lot. he didn't know if he could fully trust him yet. whenever Burt was worried around Sven or sad, at night a strange dream shows up. it scares him. it leads him to tears. though, Sven 'understands.' it's true, though Burt doesn't believe it. it's the same thing. when Sven sees Burt stressed, worried, sad, heck even dead inside, at night he's inside that dream. both have to see there fate all over again. then it became clear: they are worried about there fate.Complete
Fix Me, I'm Broken
Walking into an empty house is normal to me. I guess I got tired of saying 'I'm home' when nobody is home to reply. It wasn't always like this. I remember when our family was close. Now we don't see each other any more. We don't talk to each other. We don't eat with each other. We don't ACKNOWLEDGE each other. This all happened after my 'Mother' killed herself. My father blames me. This is my story about how I learned to not count on anyone else but myself. I'm broken. I'm used. No one can fix me. But when the New Boy in town tries to fix me, everything will change. Good change or Bad change, I don't know. Only time will tell. I want to enter this story in the #Wattys2015 please help me out and vote and comment on my story. I'll really appreciate it!!! #Wattys2015 COPYRIGHTED © 2014 BY Anallely ALL RIGHTS RESERVED ®Complete
Noah (Obsessions in Overdrive #1)
I've always had a feeling that I would die young. Ever since I started pondering on deaths door I've had this feeling. I could care less about the hell and heaven shenanigans, but death. I want it. The end of my life. I want to be in my suit, in my coffin, in the ground and my soul to be gone. I've been waiting for 16 years, yet no sign of death opening his door no matter how many times I ring his doorbell. Yeah, I enjoy thinking about my end. Especially at moments like this... *** #1 physical #1 cuteguys #1 addiction #2 self-esteem *** Started: 7 November 2022 Finished: 18 April 2024Complete
Chills
Death doesn't stop love, death stops happiness; but what happens later when the pain is less and happiness begins to take over again? People begin to forget what meant the world to them and they start pursuing other things. Even if that means moving on and living their lives like they were before. I mean you can't reverse death, right? But what if the dead could still walk among us but we had no idea? What if they could see all our actions and they could feel disappointment because we are slowly forgetting them?Complete
To Be
Death could be so unpredictable, am I right? You see I never really pictured how I'll die. My life was okay, or as okay as okay could be for me. Constantly haunted from my past. Always pretending. Except with Adrian. My Adrian. With him I'm happy. But then everything changed. And now I'm dying, slow and painful. Now, what led to all this? I'll tell you only if you're daring enough to read my story. Well, are you? *#197 in young love 12/26/19* *#222 in young love 5/10/20* *#270 in young love 12/3/20* *#55 in yafiction 3/29/21 *#18 in yafiction 4/01/21 *#16 in yafiction 1/24/22 *#44 in yafiction 11/11/22 *#25 in yafiction 3/13/23Complete
Maya (Book #3)
Just when Maya thought it was possible to outrun her past, he caught up with her once more. Maya's uncle had been on the run ever since that terrible night so many months ago. She thought she was safe with her new family and protective older brothers. She thought that maybe she would get the life that she had once dreamed of having. She thought wrong. With her uncle chasing her and nightmares and trauma not far behind, will she ever be free of the past and find out who she was meant to become? She's not a victim. She's not a survivor. She's Maya. But is that enough? Reviews from readers: "Noooo! I don't want it to be over. This was one of the best Wattpad series I've ever read and now I'm going back to reread! Thank you for writing this book and bringing such an important issue to light!" -BroadwayLover2021 "I didn't think I was going to cry but I so am. I can't even be mad that was so beautiful." -WindResistance "I finished and now I am sad cause I finished. First I was dying of excitement and now I'm crying because it's over. You really are a great writer. Thank you for this amazing book." -MiaroyjnvComplete
Release
This is a collection of my writing from the past 7 years. Before I started to write, I was a very lost individual, as are most teens, but I was lost in darkness. I was too afraid to move anywhere at all. I hid in the dark, debilitated by my own anxiety, sadnesses, anger, and hopelessness. I was desperate to be loved and feared it the most, I was a coward, I was self-destructive, I would mentally bend my thoughts to the point of bordering insanity. I was born into this world alone, and got too comfortable with it. Maybe I still am, but a fraction of what I used to be. This writing is extremely vulnerable, and potentially disturbing to others, as all my weaknesses, strengths, obsessions with making every moment sentimental, the sickening desperation I've had, the destructiveness, and the constant brutal reconstruction of my mind. Without guidance, it's been absolute intense chaos. Though, there is beauty in the darkness. Everything can be found in the darkness. You'll find that through my writing, I've somehow slowly become exactly what I've written. A living representation of my writing and what I wanted to be. Without myself even knowing it. A lot of my writing themes are based around nature, or some kind of natural aspect. The imagery I paint with natural metaphors is constant, the animals, just like you and I, the plants, and all other living things. I planted these seeds in my mind, unknowingly at the time, where I now feel the deep dark green jungle pressing at the inner walls of my skull. It's all that I want to consume my mind. There's so much to learn. The magic of nature, and it's infinite wisdom. It's as if I have been on this path all along, and I didn't even know what I was doing, yet my body and mind were passively taking care of me. Giving me and eventually showing exactly what I want, and wanted to become. I have every moment, every instance of suffering, and every epiphany to be thankful for. Soon, I'll be at peace from the raging storm.Complete
Baker and Yvonne have fought their way back to each other, rebuilding a love that once seemed lost forever. With Abigail growing closer to Yvonne and their bond deepening, they're finally stepping into the future they once dreamed of. But just as life begins to settle, shadows from the past resurface, threatening everything they've built. As old wounds heal and new promises are made, Baker and Yvonne will have to face the ultimate test-one that will challenge their love, their trust, and their very fate. Some fires are meant to destroy. Others forge something unbreakable. Through fire and fate, their love will be tested like never before. 💕💕💕 Thank you all so much for your incredible support! Unfortunately, it has come to my attention that someone is plagiarizing my stories and posting them on other apps. If you come across any of these instances, please report them immediately. I want to clarify that I would never charge for these stories-they are something I genuinely enjoy sharing with you all for free 🫶🏾.
More detailsContent Guidelines