Helplessly lonely

''i am helpless. i am lonely yet surrounded by crowd.all i need is you'' i said trying to hide my tears and blinking fastly also suppressing my sobs.
''i can't be with you always so better it will be that we both forget that's all between us''Ian said huskily i could see he is also hiding something in his oceanic blue eyes,may be not tears but surely there was pain very very deep.
''Ple..please....don't...'' Oh! God i don't think i could stop myself anymore.i couldn't even make out any words.All my life i had experienced physical pain ,physical torture,physical cuts and wounds yet i consoled myself to be strong but for ever first time this....this emotional pain feels like something is ripping my heart apart. For first time in my life i am feeling shattered as the person whom i loved and more importantly who loved me more than myself, who showed me positive way life, who was sunshine in my darkness is leaving me.