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Too Close (Phan)

WellThisIsAwkward49

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Reads 27,446
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Parts 41
Time 5h 49m

WellThisIsAwkward49

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Phil Lester is a well known youtuber. He hides behind the camera, he acts the way that he wants to but he scared to be himself at school. He's popular and he's not happy like that.

Dan is sweet and rarely talks. He is always afraid that somebody will hurt him so he tries to stay away from people and emotions. Dan struggles with depression, selfharm, bullies, anorexia, a dark past, and being fostered by an abusive family. His mom and dad died when he was 13 and he blames himself everyday. His 7 year old sister is the only thing keeping him alive and sane.

Phil feels bad for Dan, but he can't show it unless he wants to get hurt to. Little does Phil know, Dan is quickly losing control of his life. 

Read this book to go on this adventure with Dan and Phil. (Will mostly be written in Dan's POV)

WARNINGS: This story will have very triggering content that deals with self harm, depression, self hatred, anorexia, abuse, harsh language, bullying, mentions of rape, bulimia, and anxiety. Please be careful reading my book and I am always here to talk if you need it. Also, Dan is shorter in this book, about 5'9" cause I have a thing with height.All Rights Reserved

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voices | phan au by gothboiiz

dan howell, nothing but a fuck up student and son. he knows the voices get the better of him, or does it? another voice comes, but this one is real. hes called phil lester. does phils voice change the thoughts of dan? or make it worse? ~ triggers : self harm, suicide, blood, anxiety & nervous breakdowns au's : depressed, high school (mainly adult life) boyxboy

My Blood, Your Bones - Phan by SweetLittlePhangirl

Young Dan Howell, who lives with his alcoholic father, lost his mother to cancer less than a year ago, and is killing himself. Phil Lester, a boy picked on for his weight, lives alone from the rest of the world in a rehab center while trying to recover from severe anorexia. When a concerned teacher suggests Dan seek help, the two lonely worlds collide. Maybe all they need for help is each other. (Rating: Mature! Very angsty! Read at your own risk! Triggers: self harm, eating disorder, suicide. A little swearing. A little smutty, a little fluffy)

Just by Chance- Phan AU by JustAnotherFicWriter

Dan is that kid. The popular boy that every girl swoons over, that everyone wants to be friends with, the boy that's a complete jerk to anyone lower on the totem pole. But deep down, he's just trying to hide and ignore his own secret- that he's gay. Phil is Dan's usual target. Openly gay, awkward, and nerdy, he seems to be easily bullied. He's always too afraid to say anything and would rather stay in the background and get through high school and go to university. When Dan's grades slip 🔚 he needs to bring them up or else repeat his senior year, Phil is assigned to tutor Dan. It seems to be a terrible coincidence that the two are brought together, but it's so much more. Thank you @tissuesfortheissues for this amazing cover Highest ranking: 450 in fanfiction Mentions of self harm and suicide

Save Her (Daniel Howell) by PunkRock_LifeStyle

Bailey is depressed and extremely anxious. She can barley leave her house without having a panic attack. Her mind is constantly mocking her, yet nothing is working. Her medicine is useless, and her therapy is pointless. When her parents feel like Bailey needs a change of scenery, they move across the world to London, England. Little did they know, they moved into the same apartment complex as Bailey's favorite Youtubers Dan Howell and Phil Lester. After another failed attempt to leave the new apartment building, teary eyed Bailey runs through the complex, smacking into someone and tumbling down a flight of stairs. That someone, turned out to be Dan Howell. Conserned for the sad, nervous, fragile looking girl in front of him, Dan offers to walk Bailey back to her apartment. From then on, a friendship blooms between the two, but is it too late for Dan to save the young girl from her own mind?

Danny's Girl (Phan) by SmolSalmon

I've read a bunch of phan, so why not write one? Dan Howell's life couldn't be any better at the moment. He has met the most beautiful, charming, kind girl he could ever imagine, and she loves him back. Everything is perfect... but not for Phil. Phil Lester has always been in love with Dan since the first moment he first met him, but now Phil's heart is crushed. He has some suspicions of Dan's girlfriend, but Dan just brushes it off, ignoring Phil completely. Unfortunately, Phil's bad feelings may be true... Sexual content, self harm, language, and domestic abuse warning. Also, I'm American, so if I get anything wrong, please tell me. ••• Update: This is very old (not really that old) writing! It's cringy as hell, and I apologize in advance. I have fixed a few errors, so if it seems slightly different than it was before, that's why.

A slim chance by noshowsiero

Two anorexia patients Two untold stories Is a slim chance really enough to survive? -------- When Dan Howell is sent to a rehab full of depressed teenage girls, will he ever be able to escape his traumatic past? It's a slim chance... until Phil Lester comes along that is. -------- please be aware that this was written a long time before it was uploaded and my writing style has changed a lot since then. I won't be rewriting this to fix any mistakes so please DONT bother pointing them out thanks and enjoy!

If I Knew Then (Phan) by ToriDreamsOfTomorrow

**Trigger Warning: Self Harm, Abuse, Alcoholism** Dan Howell and Phil Lester never got along. Mostly because Dan took out his horrid home life on the people at school and Phil happened to be an easy target. But when things take a turn for the worse in both of their lives, they're forced to get to know each other better and discover things about themselves they never guessed.

Break Me (Phan) by MySecretsX

COMPLETE *** In this world, you're marked with black. That's if you have a soulmate, at least. Everyone is destined to cross paths with the one who is meant for them, at least once in their lives. When you and your soulmate meet, you will touch, if only briefly, and the exact area of skin you touch with the other turns from black to white, with streaks of blue, purple, yellow, all marbled in with each other. Daniel Howell is well known in town. People cross the street if they're approaching him and newcomers to the neighborhood are warned about his presence. Exactly like the Lester's were. But Phil Lester has other ideas, he saw the pain within the boy, how bad can he really be? (A story about abuse, self-destruction, but ultimately, love. Please read safe.)

Depression//Phan by bluetroyee

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The Only One (Phan) [COMPLETE] by underscorekacie

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dan howell, nothing but a fuck up student and son. he knows the voices get the better of him, or does it? another voice comes, but this one is real. hes called phil lester. does phils voice change the thoughts of dan? or make it worse? ~ triggers : self harm, suicide, blood, anxiety & nervous breakdowns au's : depressed, high school (mainly adult life) boyxboy