Bits Of Thought
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Ongoing, First published Feb 27, 2016
Mature
I talk to myself far too much in story like manners so here is a place to piece together my random bursts of emotion in which my life makes more sense than it does in a non written state
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From Rock Bottom to Redemption: A Memoir of Addiction and Recovery

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This book is about survival. About hitting rock bottom so many times you forget what the surface looks like. I've lived a life that sounds like fiction - highs that touched the sky, lows that buried me underground. Hell, I Graduated Fire/Emt school, ran huge grow operations all over the country, Made more cash that i could count, but what goes up, must come down. Addiction stripped me down to nothing, illegal schemes that seemed like survival. Traveling with nothing but hope and desperation. Three prison terms, homeless and alone. Losing everything - and I mean everything. Career. Family. Friendships. Freedom. Alcohol dependent, A fugitive on the run. Eight years without a human hug. Friends dying. House fires. Betrayals by people I trusted most, and hurting the people that loved me most. Depression so deep it made suicide look like an escape route. Slitting my wrists from palm to elbow vertically, welcoming death. But here's the thing - I'm still breathing. I'm here writing. And I'm doing this to show someone out there that no matter how fucked up things get, there's always another chapter. This isn't just my story. This is a roadmap for anyone who's ever felt hopeless. Who's ever been told they won't make it. Who's ever looked at their life and thought, "How the hell did I get here?" Buckle up. It's gonna be a hell of a ride.