About To Love

Fate must be mean or maybe it's just a coincidence?
But I guess it was really bound to happen as if everything was planned from the very beginning.

No, i think he is not the one for me to love.

Okay, enough. I can't give the reason behind what's happening. I'm still hoping and trying to convince myself that it was all just a dream and that all i have to do is to snap myself back to reality.

Easy to say than to be done. I can't really take it all. It makes me feel so weak that I can't take on my feet to stand as if nothing was wrong.

Why was everything wrong? My fault? Time should be blamed? Inevitable instances?problem? Am I not entitled to be happy and experience what the others enjoy?
I was glad that I'm about to experience it and write my own love story.

Maybe I was cursed every time I'm ABOUT TO LOVE. . .