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Have you ever wondered what it felt like to feel emotionless. To feel nothing at all.
No pain
No anger
No happiness
No anything.
Well that's what I'm feeling right now.
No one knows about my secrets. No one knows about what has happened to me in the past. Not a single person knows what I go through every single day.
This is my life. My ups, and downs, I definitely can not promise a happy ending. This is reality. Not a fairy tail.
This is how I became a monster. How I don't let anyone in. I trust no one.
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I Was 6 When I Found Out I Was Adopted, And I Found Out The Hard Way Too. All These Lies And Unpredictable People Are Worthless. In This World You Have To Learn How To Live Alone. How To Be Genuine..But Also How To Acknowledged The Fact That When You Want Something..Get It. Even If It Means Lives Have To Be Taken Away.The Unknown Will Bite Hard Cause In This Life Theirs Only A "Hard Way". My Way.
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