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Have you ever wondered what it felt like to feel emotionless. To feel nothing at all.
No pain
No anger
No happiness
No anything.
Well that's what I'm feeling right now.
No one knows about my secrets. No one knows about what has happened to me in the past. Not a single person knows what I go through every single day.
This is my life. My ups, and downs, I definitely can not promise a happy ending. This is reality. Not a fairy tail.
This is how I became a monster. How I don't let anyone in. I trust no one.
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