being alive feels weird

you never really know anything until you try it. like you don't know if you like a certain food until you taste it. The same for drinks. The same for anything in your life. If its a person you, never know if you like them until you have a taste of what their like. but not everything tastes great. things can be bitter, people can be bitter. When that happens you could be disappointed that its not what you expected. But when you know what it tasted like, and suddenly it gets bitter, it comes as a shock and punches you in the face. Its like a cup of coffee. You put what you like in it to make it taste less bitter, but once you get to the bottom of the glass you get a bitter taste of what its actually like. You didn't expect it. So when that happens to you with another person you've known and trusted, it hurts you. Unfortunately, not everyone can tell the future.