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This is my life story please don't judge me guys i've been judged my whole life . it all started when i was 190 years old they started beating me with the belt and spoon and they burned me with candle wax like 3 times i always got in trouble for my oldest adoptive sister she started blaming stuff on me . She would lie to our parents telling them that i stole there shit mean while it was her the whole time i always get beat for her doing . I'm done with getting in trouble for everybody i can't even trust my own family anymore and the only person i trust in my family is my older brother and my grandma . I got suspended a couple of times this year for other people and my mom doesn't even believe me . And this year 4 boys forced me into having sex with them and i cant even tell my mom she judges me and my best friend found out but she thinks that i wanted to have sex with them but i didn't want to i don't even know them like that only 3 go to my school 1 dropped out . i cant even trust my best friend Angela because she shows everybody the video and she doesn't even know i was forced . But i'm afraid to tell my mom cause she judges me by the clothes i wear she thinks i'm a slut when i wear crop tops she calls me a hoe and everything your mom isn't suppose to treat you like that . She loves my siblings more than me i just don't know what to do anymore . Ever since kindergarten i got bullied and i still get bullied and judged by people that don't even know me i"m nice to people i don't get why i get treated this way when i don't do anything to people . If my real parents were still alive they would not treat me like this and they would love me with all there heart . I do love my real parents with all my heart even know i don't know them . my parents died right after i was born my mom died from having to give birth to me and my dad was in a car crash he woulda survived but he was shot after that and my parents will always be with me everywhere i go