afraid

First look,
"what's happened?..what kind of place is this?" Looking around all I see is a black void.
"Maybe I'm dead...I can't see any light, I might be dead!" My vision starts to show some light, I try to move my muscles but it seems impossible.
"I can't get up, what's going on here? what's happening to me?"I'm finally able to move my head and I hear people.
"There's no one here,yet... these noises..God! my head's killing me!" I almost scream as I try moving my body to grab my head to stop the pain.
"I can't keep my eyes open" I drift of closing my eyes the noises slowly drifting away again.
Second look,
"He laughed, panted, leached over me; it hurts when he touched me," Images of him behind me touching me filled my head. "I thought id split apart suddenly with a loud thud, shattered into pieces...I felt fragile, sick, dirty, filthy...All I could do was clutch Charlotte tightly while he...Renee obeyed, he was the boss in the realm of Light! I was devoured by the evil I had done." Clutching my stomach, "My God, those medical examinations, the doctors said there was something inside me, which they would have dragged out of me..My God." I remember laying on the medical bed with my legs apart with the doctor between them doing something to me, it hurt, I remember the pain.

This book is not for the faint hearted, it can be full on in some parts, I hope whoever reads it will enjoy and tell me what they think