"Did you love her?" Her question was blatant.
"You can't ask that." I shook my head, she cocked her head to the side. "You don't just stop loving someone. You either always will, or you never did in the first place. The question you should've asked is: Do you love her?" I guided.
Her face showed more questions than she could say. She wanted to ask more, but was too afraid of hitting a nerve. She opened her mouth but shut it like a fish gasping for air. I nodded, for her to proceed, instead of saying something to stop her from asking her questions.
"Do you love her?" She copied, I bit the inside of my cheek.
I admit, I was afraid to admit that I loved her. Or that I was afraid to admit that I didn't love her. Whichever one, I was too afraid to admit that I didn't know if I loved her or not. Answering that question was like trying to love the ocean but only being taught to swim in a small pool. I was never one to understand my own feelings. They make me run around a maze, than just drop me of where I started.
"I-I don't know." I shrugged, for once I didn't have an answer for a question. Usually, I was always the one that had an answer or something for everything.
Corey, scrunched her eyebrows in confusion. "But, you just said you either know if you love someone or you don't love them at all. Now, you are just contradicting your opinion."
I smiled. I nodded, because what she said now, might just have saved my life. I jumped of my seat and dashed out of the house.
"Hey! Come back! Where are you going?!" She screamed from behind me.
I looked behind, yelling, "To stop the one I love!" I smiled.
Nixon is the 3rd book in the Broken Series. (Ryan is the 1st, Brynn is the 2nd)
Nixon leaves rehab early because he can't deal with being there anymore. His sister Kelis finds someone in need of a roommate so he moves in with the girl and gives her his middle name, Lucas. He quickly becomes addicted to the girl and once he gets one taste he's done for. He warns her about his past, about his name, but she ignores all the red flags, not realizing exactly how intertwined she is with the people from his past. He becomes enamored with her, feels like she was made for him while still battling the demons of his past and soon it all becomes too much for him to handle. He makes a heartbreaking decision, thinking it's what's best for both of them and everything changes.
Trigger/Content Warning: this book contains mature content, talks of suicide, mental and physical abuse, selfharm, drug use, and addiction
Cover designed by Anastasia Wright