Words unspoken

Have you ever reached that point in ur life where u ask these questions to urself, what if i told him in the first place how i truly felt for him? What if i held o to him tighter and asked him not to go? What if i haven't met him in the first place? Would i still be miserable? would i still cry this much? But then again, what if that person causing u this unbearable pain is the 1st guy who ever made you feel special, the 1st guy who made u feel loved, and also what if tht person is the reason why you want to look forward to ur future because hoping that he will b a part of it makes it a hell a lot brighter. Would u still regret letting him in ur life? Would u still take the risk of getting urself hurt just to make him stay in your life a little longer? There are so many questions playing in my mind, questions which i know will be hard for me to answer, but i know one thing for sure... for me not to loose him, SOME WORDS ARE BETTER YET UNSPOKEN.. or so i thought..:l