Soliloquy (A Phan fiction)
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Last published Mon, Aug 17, 2015
(TRIGGER WARNINGS: Suicide references, drug use, sexual content, rape) Phil Lester is a mess. At 19, he's already done things most people would never normally consider. He juggles his day job as a barista with his night job as a male prostitute. Dan Howell, a homeschooled 15-year-old, accidentally catches Phil's eye. Dan and Phil have never previously met, but they hit it off right away, and ultimately become inseparable. They're tragically ripped apart by family drama, but the two accidentally meet again several years later. Follow Phil and Dan in their journeys of self-discovery, love, and rebellion.
POV KEY: Italics: Phil, unless specified
Regular: Dan, unless specified
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