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Soliloquy (A Phan fiction)

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(TRIGGER WARNINGS: Suicide references, drug use, sexual content, rape) Phil Lester is a mess.  At 19, he's already done things most people would never normally consider.  He juggles his day job as a barista with his night job as a male prostitute.  Dan Howell, a homeschooled 15-year-old, accidentally catches Phil's eye.  Dan and Phil have never previously met, but they hit it off right away, and ultimately become inseparable.  They're tragically ripped apart by family drama, but the two accidentally meet again several years later.  Follow Phil and Dan in their journeys of self-discovery, love, and rebellion.

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How to Help Howell? by fiercephandom

Dan is struggling with his self confidence. Well, let's be honest. Dan has no self confidence and struggles to face the harsh realities of life and the pessimistic thoughts and voices that inhabit and nag his brain constantly. Phil tries to help his friend to realize that he really isn't as much as a monster as he thinks of himself to be. These two friends embark on a journey of love, hate, discovery, and confusion. And will they even still be friends by the end of the journey? Will Dan's turmoil break apart their friendship or turn it into something more? Dan and Phil try to answer to the burning question, How to Help Howell? WARNING: Some of this story may be triggering, so if you're sensitive to depressing topics and/or thoughts, gay slurs, mentions of eating disorders, and self harm, this may not be the story for you, which is perfectly fine. Read at your own risk! In case you didn't know, this is Dan Howell and Phil Lester fanfiction. If you haven't heard of them, then go check out their YouTube channels (AmazingPhil and danisnotonfire) right now. It won't take you long to fall in love with them and once you do, come back and read the story. :)

discontinued // my winged warrior // phan by thattumblrchick

"It's like you're a whole new person when you forget to be afraid. And that person you become, he's free." ☾❀☽ When Phil was ten, he got lost in the woods, and was found by a strange winged boy with a secret that not everyone could see. The pair fell in love, only to have their memories of each other stolen away from them forever. Years later, the short and shy Phil Lester meets the tall and sarcastic Dan Howell who wears a flower in his hair and seems to be hiding something. For a reason that neither of them can explain, they are drawn to each other. {This fanfiction is relatively safe} NO suicide NO depression NO self harm NO eating disorders It does have some minor triggers, including bullying, and slight anxiety. Message me if you need specifics, and I'll let you know. Stay safe.

A slim chance by noshowsiero

Two anorexia patients Two untold stories Is a slim chance really enough to survive? -------- When Dan Howell is sent to a rehab full of depressed teenage girls, will he ever be able to escape his traumatic past? It's a slim chance... until Phil Lester comes along that is. -------- please be aware that this was written a long time before it was uploaded and my writing style has changed a lot since then. I won't be rewriting this to fix any mistakes so please DONT bother pointing them out thanks and enjoy!

Boarding School - Phan by nickisbadstories

[COMPLETE] Dan always knew he wasn't straight but he couldn't admit it to himself.. That changes when he goes to a boarding school and gets to know this guy called Phil. Triggers: a lot of fluff (and smut in some chapters), boyxboy - Phan. (also my first fanfic ever<3 please go easy on me, this wasn't edit and I can't read it again without cringing)

Borrowed Wings (Phan fiction) by CaptainAwkward

Daniel James Howell, a melancholy and drunkard man who'd give up his own body to find ways to pay his rent, mostly sleeping with different men from the clubs. One day, he was heavily intoxicated. He stumbled across Phil Lester's apartment and passed out next to his front door. As Phil surprisingly saw Dan sober the next morning, things were about to turn around in an unusual way. [FAN FIC COMPLETED.] Based on a fan made movie trailer by Sumirai. (http://youtu.be/yuRC_rvI5ys) Please watch the movie trailer before reading the fan fiction!

Alcoholics Anonymous | phan | by SHAGGYISMYGOD

Phil Lester has been a mess since he left his home town, his star quarterback days are long gone- leading him to find some sort of peace at the bottom of a bottle. But when his mother dies, he finds himself back where he grew up- wanting to be his old self again. Daniel Howell hasnt been the same since prom Night- though it was almost 5 years ago. His alcoholic tendencies have almost ruined his relationship with his sister, but he wants to change. What will happen when the two run into each other at an AA meeting? Will old love be recovered- or will it be forgotten? ●Sequel to Prom Queen●

Give Me Strength by Rain_Enby

*TRIGGER WARNING* Dan Howell has been bullied for as long as he can remember. Phil Lester is the bully. Phil doesn't want to be a bully anymore but will Dan forgive him. Also this story is very cringe, I'm sorry haha and yes I'm aware it moves kinda fast but I want it like that This story is very bad, sorry 😂

I'll Try My Best (Phan) [Completed] by Meowgravy

Dan has a hard time at school and doesn't have any friends. Phil notices Dan and sees what he does to himself. Phil try to help him. Soon Dan slowly begins to fall in love with Phil. But will Phil fall in love with Dan or not? Will they stay friends or will they hate each other after Dan confesses his feelings? To find out you need to read this! By the way I'm not a really good writer but this will have to do. HOPE YOU LIKE IT!!! *Warning! There is a self harm and language warning. If you don't like that kind of stuff then do not read!*

Sugar Daddy, Sugar Baby by SpringHaze

Nineteen-year-old law student Dan Howell lands himself a Sugar Daddy in twenty-three-year-old filmmaker and millionaire, Phil Lester, at a Sugar Party. The two come to agreement wherein Phil agrees to take care of Dan's educational, financial, medical, and personal needs in exchange for companionship, friendship, and the possibility of much more. There are no trigger warnings for this story. This work is based on Dan and Phil, and I write fictional pieces knowing that they support creativity and imagination. I don't wish to cause harm or imply anything about the nature of their actual relationship. Please enjoy! Thank you for your support. SpringHaze

Danny's Girl (Phan) by SmolSalmon

I've read a bunch of phan, so why not write one? Dan Howell's life couldn't be any better at the moment. He has met the most beautiful, charming, kind girl he could ever imagine, and she loves him back. Everything is perfect... but not for Phil. Phil Lester has always been in love with Dan since the first moment he first met him, but now Phil's heart is crushed. He has some suspicions of Dan's girlfriend, but Dan just brushes it off, ignoring Phil completely. Unfortunately, Phil's bad feelings may be true... Sexual content, self harm, language, and domestic abuse warning. Also, I'm American, so if I get anything wrong, please tell me. ••• Update: This is very old (not really that old) writing! It's cringy as hell, and I apologize in advance. I have fixed a few errors, so if it seems slightly different than it was before, that's why.

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How to Help Howell?

Dan is struggling with his self confidence. Well, let's be honest. Dan has no self confidence and struggles to face the harsh realities of life and the pessimistic thoughts and voices that inhabit and nag his brain constantly. Phil tries to help his friend to realize that he really isn't as much as a monster as he thinks of himself to be. These two friends embark on a journey of love, hate, discovery, and confusion. And will they even still be friends by the end of the journey? Will Dan's turmoil break apart their friendship or turn it into something more? Dan and Phil try to answer to the burning question, How to Help Howell? WARNING: Some of this story may be triggering, so if you're sensitive to depressing topics and/or thoughts, gay slurs, mentions of eating disorders, and self harm, this may not be the story for you, which is perfectly fine. Read at your own risk! In case you didn't know, this is Dan Howell and Phil Lester fanfiction. If you haven't heard of them, then go check out their YouTube channels (AmazingPhil and danisnotonfire) right now. It won't take you long to fall in love with them and once you do, come back and read the story. :)