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Soliloquy (A Phan fiction)

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(TRIGGER WARNINGS: Suicide references, drug use, sexual content, rape) Phil Lester is a mess.  At 19, he's already done things most people would never normally consider.  He juggles his day job as a barista with his night job as a male prostitute.  Dan Howell, a homeschooled 15-year-old, accidentally catches Phil's eye.  Dan and Phil have never previously met, but they hit it off right away, and ultimately become inseparable.  They're tragically ripped apart by family drama, but the two accidentally meet again several years later.  Follow Phil and Dan in their journeys of self-discovery, love, and rebellion.

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A Wizard's Misgivings by jilliancares

Dan Howell's entire family has been in Slytherin, and there's no doubt he'd supposed to end up there too. Phil Lester does't exactly know what to do when he finds himself liking boys, so he's usually just horrendously mean to them. Oh, and they happen to get cursed and can't touch! (An enemies to lovers fic!) creds to @XSillyTilly for this amazing cover <3

$Crime Can't Love \/ Phan \/ COMPLETE by LiterallyJustCase$

" For the first time I felt I saw Daniel Howell, the lonely boy who puts everything into his job so he can feel there are some people out there who will not leave him. And for the first time Dan saw me, Philip Michael Lester, the suicidal runaway who's constantly haunted by his regrets. The secretive boy that will never let himself get attached and hurt others. ,, ~ We Truly Saw Eachother - Chapter 24 ------------------- Aka: Phil's a ruthless crime-lord and the boss of the Mafia. The job's dangerous, so he can't really be bothered to make friends or relationships if he's just going to scare them or drive them away... But that doesn't mean he doesn't get lonely. Dan's a famous internet celebrity who spreads word about mental illness and brings joy to many lives. He values his image and career above nearly everything else, but that means he thinks he doesn't have time for relationships of any kind. Even before they meet, they impact each other, no matter how much Phil hates what he's done. Started: 9.10.18 (British date) Completed: 24.8.19 Edited: 18.10.19 - ??.??.?? TW: Robbery, Gangs, mugging, murder, crime, one-night stands, relationship and family abuse, multiple suicides, major character death, smut (optional and put in another book), kidnapping, minor character death, mental issues. The cover is completely my own artwork, so stOP ASKING

Alcoholics Anonymous | phan | by SHAGGYISMYGOD

Phil Lester has been a mess since he left his home town, his star quarterback days are long gone- leading him to find some sort of peace at the bottom of a bottle. But when his mother dies, he finds himself back where he grew up- wanting to be his old self again. Daniel Howell hasnt been the same since prom Night- though it was almost 5 years ago. His alcoholic tendencies have almost ruined his relationship with his sister, but he wants to change. What will happen when the two run into each other at an AA meeting? Will old love be recovered- or will it be forgotten? ●Sequel to Prom Queen●

Smile, Dan by kittylover573ds

DISCLAIMER: This story is mature because it will have some self harm in it. It will also have some swearing due to that's how Dan actually talks. This is not about Phan being real. I'm sorry to disappoint you. Now onto what it is really about: Dan Howell is becoming more and more depressed. His family, his community, not even his best friend, Phil Lester, can help him. He believes he's a lost cause, and he's a mistake. He tries to hide it best he can, but some nights, it's just too much. During this, he's lost his will to smile. He'll fake smiles for videos and pictures, but he's lost a reason to genuinely smile.

Outcast ✧ Phan by cuddlephan

Dan Howell has telekinesis - a power just like out of a comic book. Yet instead of protecting the universe as a brave superhero, he hides. He hides his power and himself, fearing nothing more than getting attached to somebody and dragging them down. Of course, Phil Lester, the new kid in school, just had to come waltzing in, destroying his entire view on nearly everything in the worst (and best) ways possible. Phil's like a drug, and boy, is Dan addicted. Warning: contains self harm, depression, boyxboy, references towards abuse, and other possible triggers or content you may not be comfortable with. you can message me in private for the specifics if you feel you need it and remember to stay safe. (Top: #89 in Fanfiction, #1 in Phan!)

The Lion and The Llama: A Phan Love Story #Wattys2015 by Nalan1234

PHAN Fanfiction! *WARNING! TRIGGERS IN BOOK LIKE VERY RARE SELF HARM* No smut, just extreme fluff :) Dan Howell has been in love with his best friend Phil Lester, since they met. Dan hates himself for loving someone he is sure will never love him back. Dan convinces himself that he is too ugly, why would anyone even like him? Dan knows that Phil will never love him back, so he leaves Phil. Phil is confused. His best friend (Not to mention MAJOR crush) just left. Why? Did he scare off Dan somehow? Did Dan figure out about Phil's feelings about him? Phil is confused, hurt and goes to extreme measures to try to stop the pain. Phan love story about how these two best friends lose each other. What will happen when Dan comes back? Extremely fluffy story. Triggers like rare self harm. Please do not read if it bothers you. This is my first fan fiction, so bare with me guys :)

Fix Me |Phan AU| by blushinghobi

©blushinghobi Dan Howell (20) has been hurt and abandoned for his whole life. Left lonely,he had absolutely nobody to talk to. He had a shitty apartment and a crappy job and really,he had nothing to look forwards to in his life. Phil Lester (24) seemed like a really bubbly and happy person. He made YouTube videos online and he was overall happy. Just what Dan needed to have. What will happen when the both of them meet? Will everything be fantastic or will all just fall to pieces?

Uncovered (A Phan fic) by childestiddies69

High school.... supposed to be the best years ever. Not to Daniel Howell. He's a pastel, shy boy with anxiety. He gets bullied almost everyday because of his fashion choices. People call him offensive names and beat him up. The thing about Dan is that he has a secret that can't be uncovered. His dad beats him up, causing him to have severe depression. Phil is a punk- jock that can pretty much bang anyone he pleases and can get away with anything. On the first day of senior year, Dan gets seated next to Phil and they both start to talk more and more. Making their relationship more intense. But Dans secrect shall remain... uncovered. WARNINGS Language Abuse (Bullying, alcohol) Fluff (maybe smut) Ddlb

Borrowed Wings (Phan fiction) by CaptainAwkward

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There is a Light That Never Goes Out (Phan) by worriedpeach

When Dan Howell goes to end his life one fateful night, he doesn't expect to meet a stranger that proposes a deal. If Dan give him thirty days, Phil will give him thirty reasons to live. If at the end of the thirty days and Dan still feels the same, then Phil will leave him alone. Warnings: mentions of suicide, smoking, overdose, alcohol, cursing, smut, depression, anxiety

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A Wizard's Misgivings

Dan Howell's entire family has been in Slytherin, and there's no doubt he'd supposed to end up there too. Phil Lester does't exactly know what to do when he finds himself liking boys, so he's usually just horrendously mean to them. Oh, and they happen to get cursed and can't touch! (An enemies to lovers fic!) creds to @XSillyTilly for this amazing cover <3