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Death_Of_A_Phangirl
Ongoing, First published Mar 14, 2016
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a·nath·e·ma
əˈnaTHəmə/
noun
1.
something or someone that one vehemently dislikes.

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Dan Howell is a lucid dreamer. Through his dreams he meets a charming young man named Phil. Dan knows Phil is just a fragment of his imagination, and over time it starts eating away at him. 


Credit to @preciousphan for the idea of this book
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