These Days
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Last published Sun, Jul 21, 2013
Does losing someone you love mean losing yourself?
It all started with the video that went viral around the school. Then Raquel's suicide, which all points to being the fault of her boyfriend John. No letter, no video, nothing. Left with no idea where to go, John is determined not to grieve for somebody that could do what she did to him and then just . . . leave the way she did. Trying to repress all the memories of their love, he soon finds solace in three people potentially more screwed up than he is.
When Raquel's sister tells John that Raquel kept a diary and that it's gone now . . . . but not until after the suicide. Does the diary hold all the answers that everyone, including John, needs to move on?
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