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I don't want to feel

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Samantha Ford was seven when her mother had her shipped to the Isle of Wight. Alone to deal with her nightmares in a foreign country but determined to keep her promise, she managed to survive.
Now, ten years later, she is a straight-A pupil in an advanced PE section with her best friend, Danny. 
But what is Sam supposed to do when the walls she has carefully built to protect herself threaten to crumble? Will she allow herself to live and love or will she simply give up when she finally has to face the demons from her past?All Rights Reserved

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Phantasm by unknownentity_

Sam is your typical 17-year-old high school bully. He has a group of friends who bullies for a living and is in a relationship with the hottest girl in school. One day, he met a strange boy named "Aaron", an 11th grader who wears enormous glasses and brings big books wherever he went. Plus, he shivers in fear (literally) when he is within Sam's perimeters that makes him the best client in Sam's bullying business. However, not all things are what they always seem as Sam unravels something intriguing about Aaron and about himself. This book is a moving up requirement and as a part of our Production Thesis. I'm from the Arts department of a public junior high school in the Philippines and just publishing and launching this book brought me not only joy but also pride because this is my first ever novelette (or maybe novel considering it's length)!

The Choice (a Painful Past) by JustJessie624

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The Duet Of Deceit by hannahcmary

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Phantasm

Sam is your typical 17-year-old high school bully. He has a group of friends who bullies for a living and is in a relationship with the hottest girl in school. One day, he met a strange boy named "Aaron", an 11th grader who wears enormous glasses and brings big books wherever he went. Plus, he shivers in fear (literally) when he is within Sam's perimeters that makes him the best client in Sam's bullying business. However, not all things are what they always seem as Sam unravels something intriguing about Aaron and about himself. This book is a moving up requirement and as a part of our Production Thesis. I'm from the Arts department of a public junior high school in the Philippines and just publishing and launching this book brought me not only joy but also pride because this is my first ever novelette (or maybe novel considering it's length)!