Fears

Do you know what the difference between being strong and being fearless is?

Being fearless is when you aren't afraid of anything, but being strong is when you push aside your fears in order to protect something. And usually that something is a someone.

I'm not going to pretend that I don't have any fears- because I do. I have an endless list of them; spiders, clowns, heights, flying, public speaking, the dark... but my biggest fear is death. Well not death per se, but I'm scared of what happens after you die. I'm scared of being forgotten. I'm scared of not existing. My biggest fear isn't the afterlife, but the after death. I'm scared that I haven't made a big enough impact on the world and the people that I know, for them to remember me. I'm scared for what happens when you die. I'm scared that everything I've lived for, everything I've done in this life is all for nothing because it won't matter. I'm scared of truth. I'm scared of knowing. I'm scared of living.