Stars
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MatureComplete Tue, Jun 14, 201627m
It's quiet, it's 2 AM, and I bet I know what your doing. Your thinking. But what your thinking varies doesn't it? From tears that roll down and no one notices them, or from fantasies you wish would come true.
But why?
Because deep down you know when you think, you cry, and crying makes you happy, because your taking a big look at your life.
This isn't a book, it's just thoughts, it's reassuring that your worthe it, it's telling you that even a stranger can care. Because we've all been there before.
Heart breaks
Self harm
Trust issues
Being left behind
Being replaced
It's all happened but your wondering why does this happen to me?
Well sweetie, I'm here to tell you that maybe there's a reason behind it.
And that one day, no matter how much you doubt it, that it will get better.
XOXO
~countryygirl2001
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