This Isn't How It Ends
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Last published Sat, Mar 19, 2016
My name is Carolyn Ash Welmer. I am seventeen years old and I have a drug and alcohol addiction. It all started on April 8, 2014. I took my very first sip of alcohol and then it all went downhill from that day on. It started out as something I did with friends once in a while for fun like lots of teenagers do, and then I became addicted. That day I also took my first puff of a cigarette, and told my friends that I would try smoking weed just once. Since I got high off weed for my first time I have become addicted, but the worst part is I'm addicted to more drugs than just marijuana. It's been almost two years since it all started and I regret every second of that day. During these two years I have ended up in the hospital due to drugs and alcohol eleven times. I have begun to steal things from stores to sell so I can get money for my addictions. I have lost all except one of my friends over the years. They all said they didn't want to be friends with nor around someone that does this kind of stuff. The one friend that stayed with me is here to help me. I know I have a problem and I know I need to stop but it's not as easy as you think. You can't just wake up one day and just quit. My body is addicted and it craves all of the drugs, alcohol and cigarettes. I know that it's bad to be addicted to all of this at such a young age but this all happened because when I was fifteen I thought I was cool by hanging around with the bad kids in my class, the ones our parents warned us about. They didn't pre pressure me into any of this. I just wanted to fit in....
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