They never knew how much it hurt me. They hit me; I won't ever forget any of it. I have no friends, no trust, no love. I do what I have to do- go to school, listen, get good grades, stay silent, do my homework.
Everything was like that since seventh grade. In eleventh grade, now, though, things have started to change. People have started to realize that I'm there. And they don't like it.
I'm Ethan Lowley. The loser, the loner, the freak, the psycho, the nightmare, the mistake. But I wasn't always that way. I didn't want to be. It was them, what they did, how I tried to get away.
But along came a spider.
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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