Forgotten (A Dan Howell X Reader fanfiction. ⚠️Trigger warning⚠️)
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Last published Sun, May 1, 2016
You and Phil are best of friends. He never knew about your depression but you didn't care.
You knew you weren't all that important. Anyways, you decided to surprise him by moving into a apartment next-door to his. When rumors start spreading of you using men to gain your way to the top of the youtube community, Phil leaves you and your left alone.
But, then Dan comes along. You knew about him..he was danisnotonfire.
Your most favorite Youtuber. But you never knew he moved in with Phil.
All your friends had left you.. Jack. Felix. Mark. Wade. Bob. Ken. Cry. Louise. Zoe. Caspar. Alfie. Calum. All of them.
Dan was really the only friend you had left. But when you start to get feelings for him will you be 'Friends with Benefits' Or will you be 'Just Friends'?
Find out in this Daniel James Howell X Reader fanfiction! (Trigger warning; contains, self-harm, anxiety attacks, and suicidal thoughts.)
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