Depression is a wishing game.
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Last published Thu, Apr 7, 2016
More than anything it's just wishing. Wishing that someone'll find out about it. Wishing that they won't. Wishing that I could stop hurting. Wishing that I could hurt more. It is a loop of conflicting wishes, and I don't know which of them I truly want.
Please comment. Tell what you liked or didn't like. I am completely desperate. I am thinking of continuing this, but I am not sure. Please tell me if you might want more. This story was mainly an outlet when my own depression was hitting. So it's probably not all that good, but please tell me what you think. Rating could change if continued, tell me what you would like to see.
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