Mental War
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Last published Mon, Mar 21, 2016
Depression, suicidal, anorexia, bulimia, now schizophrenia.
I didn't ask for the depression. It just started in 7th grade.
The suicidal feelings came with the depression. Hand in hand they go.
The anorexia I gave myself. I forced myself to become it until I was it. My gym teacher called me fat.
Bulimia came after the anorexia began to backfire. I was binge eating (my body was starved and wanted everything and anything I could get.) I began to purge.
The schizophrenia...
I don't know when it came.
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