What I Aspire In Life

For years I have been striving to learn spiritualism and mind control. Despite having a life full of emotional and materialistic satisfaction, enjoying comforts that wealth bestows on us, I have managed to control my needs, desires and cravings, through the practice of moderation. While trying to seek peace and balance in the course of my worldly pursuits, I have now reached a state of mind when I ask myself, what I aspire for, beyond this. What will be my focus and direction from here on? Should I now renounce or liberate myself from worldly pleasures, from the life I have built for myself over the years, or follow a new path of religion, or some other doctrine unexplored by me so far.
Moreover, this self-obsession, our ego, makes us suspicious of all around us. We misplace our energies trying to protect ourselves from imaginary enemies, who, we feel, are out to get us, leading to feelings of insecurity. Or else we fail to see beyond a life of comforts - fine dining