Breathe (Haise Sasaki X Reader)

"Every time I trust someone, they show me why I shouldn't."
"I think that I'm actually afraid to be happy, because whenever I am, something bad always happens."
I'm aware of the choices I've been making, I know exactly how it will turn out, yet I still have the audacity to act surprised. I know whether or not I'm making the right or wrong choice, I know who I should trust, and whether or not they are a good person. I know all these things, yet I'm still taking on the sadness of others. I was always able to read them like a book... except him. He taught me that in life, I shouldn't speed through it to get it over with, that I should stop, look around and breathe.
(Alternate Universe with human Haise and trigger warning! Do not read if you are sensitive to self harm or physical/psychological abuse.)