one word can change everything.
isn't it funny how all around the world , there are so many words with so many meanings we can hardly keep up.
The same word can be said and have completely different effects, either because of the person saying it, the way it's being said , the tone, or even the look your being given while the words are being spoken, yet universally there's that one word that always means the same no matter the language, how its being said or who by, the tone or the look your being given, that one word that can stir so many emotions in you at once or just make you feel numb.
It can make u feel strangely relieved, sad, angry, confused, heart broken, shocked and so many others all at the same time or it can make u feel hollow, empty, lost. Its a word that can bring an entire country, even the whole world to its knees when used on a mass spectrum.
A word that broke my world apart; shattered the lenses on my somewhat rose tinted glasses of the world, that made me feel like my heart was being out of my chest; had a stake shoved through it, stomped on it, burnt it and then spilled the ashes into lava and made decorative pattens of the remains.
Death.
Its so simple but that one word can really screw you up and screw you over. Well there is one other word that can do similar things to you as the word death, its not one you expect but if you think about it enough, draw the lines in the similarities of the fallout after hearing these words. It really does make complete sense.
Love
Now That word can screw you over almost as much as the first but if you lucky in different ways, well i say if your lucky because i definitely wasn't.
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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