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Blessed With a Curse [ON HOLD]

OneOfAKinddJewel___

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Parts 11
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Reads 10,691
Votes 306
Parts 11
Time 1h 37m

OneOfAKinddJewel___

Mature

What's wrong with me? Everybody thinks I am this..freak but I swear I'm not...at least I don't think I am. People think I'm "paranoid" or "Schizophrenic" If you were to ask my therapist, she would say I, "exhibit symptoms of a suicidal, undifferentiated  schizophrenic brought on by a traumatic birth or genetics." Bitch clearly used Bing, and not Google. 

I am not crazy. I'm just trying to live my life and have fun, if I can find someone who actually knows what is wrong with me then maybe I won't be living with this curse anymore. I do know that if I ever find that person, I will owe them my life.

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