My Story

Dead Inside: I was on the edge of a cliff when all of my memories came back. All the words that haunted me. Ugly, fat, furious, horrific, suicidal, cutting, slut, whore, bitch, and physcho. They each dug little daggers into my side. They hurt so much. How could all of those words describe just one person? But as the horrific memories faded, I thought of the last conversation I had with my best friend. One last time: "I'm sorry I'm this way. I'm sorry I became this way. But, you left me on the edge of the cliff because you didn't like me. Because of all the others were saying. How could you do this to me? I needed you most. You left me. Why?"

She answered back, "You were cutting. What was I supposed to do? Everyone was calling you suicidal. And much more names. How can I be a friend to someone who does sins and doesn't ask for forgiveness?"

"How can I ask for forgiveness when I don't believe in God? Even if He was real, then he grew tired of me.Everyone has. I mean for fucking peak sakes. MY family is making me sleep in the fucking basement because they hate me. Everyone hates me and everyone is afraid of me. I mean, did you not see all the looks I get from everyone? Including my family? They're daggers. Trying to kill me. If they had the chance, I'm pretty sure they would kill me. That is why I needed you most. You're my only friend. I need you."

" Well, you should've thought about that before you went cutting up all your fucking body! Whore!!!!"

"Well at least I'm not a back staving bitch!!"

And that was the last time I saw her after she crashed her car into a semi. I kinda miss her. She was my best friend in the whole world. Now she is in a better place. Hopefully. Maybe I'll se her soon. As soon as I jump off the cliff. Just one more step to end it all. One little step.

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