Fade

"It was all a lie. I didn't love you." That was the most bullshit sentence that I've heard in my entire fucking life. It hurts like hell. All I have to do was to act like I didn't care, when deep down inside of me was crying and asking for someone to help me. I don't want anyone see me crying. I have to hold back all my tears because I don't need anyone's pity. I am bruised, scarred and wound up, no one can fix me.

Yes, pain really change people. I've become emotionless and my heart became numb. Somehow, this kind of feeling that I have right now helps me to cover myself up from the people and also to keep my heart from being broken again. Now, I am turning to someone.. someone who is not me. I love to hurt feelings and fight with other people just to get satisfaction, it releases all my hatred in just a moment of time. I am not foolish girl anymore. I am not already crying myself to sleep everynight. But the wrong is.. I'll never be happy again.