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Or just when i could see a ray of hope? it was taken away from me. tell me then what should i be hopeful about ? why should i believe in things and why should i keep faith. whY? if things cant ever stay the same, why should i keep trying for ? i dont feel like doing anything for myself. and as weird and depressing it sounds, i dont want to do anything for myself. as far as i can recall, never have i done anything in life for myself. never. my life has always been about others.
I dont write that often. i write when i am full with feelings and i can take no more.
and seriously i dont even know why am i posting it over here.
-a.b
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