the illusion of love

"the illusion of love"
The feeling of love, confusion, anger, and loyalty is the worst combination. the horrible feeling you get when that one person you desire is not yearning for you. at just the matter of time , you managed to get attached to them. but why ? maybe because they filled your head with lies, calumniation, and consternation. constantly weeping and distressing over what you are blind to. you're so blind by the big picture. she doesn't care at all. the worst feeling of it all is that ur loyalty got you. how much effort u put into them that u never got the same amount back. so angry that you got played with and the feeling of your emotions being juggled by someone you really could've seen it coming. so confused of why you don't get the same amount of loyalty and care out of a person. the nights when you turn all your friends down to talk to the one person you think is only wanting you when you find out she's wanting everyone except for you. she stabbed and murdered your