This can't be happening

They say that when you find your true love you would do anything for them and feel like you have a purpose in this lonely world. But I don't believe that, I think it's just a myth.
Hai! My name is Alex, my full name is Alexandria, but I don't use it much. I am 17 years old and am entering my junior year of high school.
I am known as the "emo girl" and I get made fun of a lot, I never have anyone to talk to, and I am so alone. I constantly have my ear buds in my ears with the volume all the way up because I try to ignore this horrid world.
I never ever thought that I would find love or anyone I liked for that matter, but I did! I think... I don't know... I don't know what love feels like... Anyways if you want to know more, read my story.