How Does It Go?..

I'm a girl.. I think I have anxiety and at times mild depression.. I have quite a few friends, a lot more than in primary school anyway, and I care about them all a lot, though I don't always believe that they care about me.. There's more I could mention, and maybe I will later.. I also feel like I've said 'I' alot, which is weird cause I really don't care about myself, I care a lot more about my friends and family.. I'm emotional.. I showed that a lot at one point and I've been trying to do it less.. I'm in a constant state of existential crisis.. You know what? I know this is not your problem, and I know not many people will care.. I know it doesn't sound like it but at I am also capable of being happy!.. Does any of it really matter?..